Believe Me

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Have you ever been wrongfully punished or accused of something you didn’t do?  I have!  And I was 10.  I still remember it like it was yesterday.

We lived in the mountains and the house was my parent’s dream home.  My brother and I often played baseball outside – I pitched, he hit, or sometimes visa versa.  Mom would often times tell us to move farther away from the house.  But on this day, somehow, a window in the downstairs family room was broken, and I was blamed.  The baseball went right through it and shattered the glass.  It seemed all evidence pointed to me, and I was punished.  However, it wasn’t me who broke it.  Actually on this day, I wasn’t even playing baseball!  My brother was!

I remember crying out to my mom, “It wasn’t me!  It wasn’t me!  Believe me, pleeeease!”  But to no avail.  I got the punishment – undeserved.  Afterwards, I remember crying and riding my bike as far away from the house as my little legs could carry me.  So upset that my mom wouldn’t believe me. I just wish she would’ve believed me!  I was telling the truth!

I was reminded of this time in my childhood recently when I was reading my Bible.   “’You are My witnesses,’ says the Lord, ‘and My servant whom I have chosen, that you may know and believe Me, and understand that I am He. Before Me there was no God formed, nor shall there be after Me.'”  Isaiah 43:10 (NKJV)

The words “believe me” jumped off the page.  It was if I was standing next to my heavenly Father and I could see Him pleading with me to believe Him.  Believe Me, Jodi!  Believe what I say.  Believe who I am.  Believe in Me.  Pleeeease believe Me!

My heart’s cry is now “Oh God, may I believe You!”  I would hate for God to feel as I did that day at 10 years old when my word was not believed.

Do you believe Him?  What is He saying to you today?  Can you believe what He is telling you?

(Side note:  I hold nothing against my mom in this.  Love you mom!)

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Knowing, Becoming, Being Found

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I love this picture!  But more than that, I loved the experience of the picture!  I was just starting a short hike deep in the Rocky Mountain forest by myself last summer when I glanced to my left and saw this scene.  You may have to search for it to find it.  But there, not 15 feet from me, was a deer relaxing in the grass!  He was chewing on some grass, resting in the spotted shade of the Aspens, and just enjoying “being.”  It was such an awesome, peaceful, exciting moment as we each just stared at each other for a while.  After coming to the forest after 8 months of being deep in the jungles of the city of Denver, this was such a rare and beautiful moment!

I can write all the flowery adjectives and verbs to describe what I saw and how I felt, and you can see the flat picture to try to get an understanding, but it doesn’t come close to experiencing it.

I bet it’s the same way when you try to describe your own experiences to others; how you felt, the colors, the textures, the temperature at those moments, and what the impact was or ripple effect on you those moments had.  You may even take pictures along the way to help in communicating those experiences and feelings.  But they are lacking, aren’t they?  You just want to somehow do a brain and heart blend (similar to Spock from Star Trek) to download directly to someone the emotions!

It’s impossible for someone else to have the same experience I’ve had, after the fact.  Alone, that is.  But if we are together, at that moment, at the same time and place – we would be closer to experiencing the same thing.  You would experience the same deer.  But would it still be the same to you as it was to me?  Maybe you live in the mountains and see deer everywhere every day.  Would that be the same experience?  Definitely not.  But it would be closer.

That is exactly the way I feel.  I want to experience my journey with you in growing to know, become, and be found in Him.  But your journey is different, and your moments are yours and yours alone.

What do I mean by “knowing, becoming, and being found in Him?”  Like this deer was “found” buried in the trees, he was already “being” before I ever came across him.  My journey is ultimately to be found in Him.  Or maybe another way to say it, but not necessarily grammatically correct, to be “being in Him.”

Phillipians 3:7-9 NIV “But whatever were gains to me I now consider loss for the sake of Christ. What is more, I consider everything a loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all things. I consider them garbage, that I may gain Christ and be found in Him, not having a righteousness of my own that comes from the law, but that which is through faith in Christ—the righteousness that comes from God on the basis of faith. I want to know Christ—yes, to know the power of his resurrection and participation in his sufferings, becoming like him…” (emphasis mine)

I have recently lost my job, lost my income, lost my job responsibilities, lost my sense of accomplishment, lost who I was (a marketing professional), but it is all worthless!  But so worth it!  Now I want to KNOW (experience) Him, BECOME like Him, and to be FOUND in Him!

Want to join me on this hike?

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The Call

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You may have heard pastors and teachers talk about “the call” on people’s lives (or maybe you haven’t), and perhaps even shared their own story of when they were “called.”  Through these stories, I often hear a couple of themes:  a sudden “knowing,” or word, or a dream or vision, or a prayer with laying on of hands from another spiritual authority in their lives.

I’d like to share my own story, but in contrast to these stories of a concrete understanding of what God is calling them to, mine is more like a pregnancy…but I’ll get to that.

It started as the new year came around and new year’s resolutions were a common topic of conversation.  Last year, I had written up a 2014 Vision for myself, but nonetheless, it was a type of resolution.  This year, 2015, I didn’t really feel the need to do that – though the NEED to make changes in my life was desperate such as:

  • Lose weight – I’ve become the heaviest I have in my life, to the point of being unhealthy (back aches, tendonitis, pain in knees and ankles, headaches, stomach issues, etc.)
  • Get into shape – it’s hard to not breathe heavy when going up one flight of stairs
  • Get a job – for the first time in my life (since I was 16) I was unemployed (for 6+ months) and “floundering” with what to do
  • Be on purpose about being/making friends – changes were occurring in my 4 core best friendships that I’ve had for 15-30+ years!
  • Love and respect my husband – going on year 2 of our marriage (yes, we married late in life) I wanted to learn how to love and respect him the way he felt it
  • Put God first in my life – always a good resolution right?

Great ideas and needs!  Right?

Well, by happenstance, I briefly heard on TV that Joyce Meyer was doing a 3030 challenge for the new year.  I figured “heck, I’ll try this for now because I have time” (remember, I am unemployed!) and it might help get me on track for the last bullet “put God first in my life.”  Then I also saw the 3030 challenge on the Bible app as a daily plan.  (Side note:  if you don’t have the Bible app – get it! or a similar one.)  The challenge was to study the Bible for 30 minutes for 30 days in a row.  I figured she would write several paragraphs and scriptures that if I were to read them, would take 30 minutes – easy peasy!  Nope, not the case.

The plan actually challenged you (me) to do so much more.  Study!  ICK!  I have always hated studying at school and rarely remembered what I studied after I passed the test.  Some people, my husband for instance, LOVES to study and do research.  I don’t get it.  Why do some people have to know EVERY little detail!  NOT my passion.  Just give me the bottom line.  That’s all I need to know.  In reality and through my marriage, I understand how very valuable these types of personalities are, but it still isn’t me (naturally that is).

I had brought this same bottom line mentality to my Bible reading the majority of my life.  When I go to read the Bible, I look for what God wants to speak to me today, then go about my business and work to incorporate what He said into my life.  Very noble!  I wanted (and still do) to hear God’s word for me and obey!  Isn’t that the sum of Christian life?  Yes – and No.  Maybe not for me in this season of my journey.

So, on January 5th I started – it was a Monday.  I always like to start my new programs (exercising, losing weight…you get the picture) on Monday’s.  Not January 1st – that was a Thursday!  No one starts new programs on a Thursday, for heaven’s sake!  That’s right before the weekend.  I’m sure I’ll be out having fun on the weekend, so January 1st just wasn’t happening.

To bottom line it for you, I have completed the 3030 challenge in 38 days!  Uh, well, didn’t exactly do it in 30 continuous days, did I?  But God is soooo good and forgiving!

During this same timeframe, I also signed up for a Beth Moore bible study with my church which required studying 5 days a week of study materials.  (Side note:  if you’ve never done a Beth Moore study – do it!)  What was I thinking?  Another “study!”  But heck, I had the time …right? (remember, unemployed!)  Yep!  I had the time.

Going back in time

A little more background into The Call (mine, that is).

Once I was laid off from my corporate position in June 2014, I really felt that God was telling me to rest.  WHAT?!  Rest?  I can’t!  I need to work because I’m good at it!  Plus, we needed to pay the bills.  That is what is wise.  And I am wise.  So, I networked with everyone I knew to find a job, added information to my LinkedIn profile, went to a career placement company, and “pounded the streets” as they say.  But to no avail.  Every door that creaked open, was slammed quickly!  Geesh, if I wasn’t fairly self-confident in my abilities, this could be a real confidence buster.  Uh, well, it was.  However, I kept seeking God and His plan.  He kept saying REST!

Ok fine!  I’ll rest…in front of the TV.  There are so many good TV series’ out there that I can watch without any commercials one right after the other on our Netflix!  Sweet!  Resting, I did!  And it is good.  Sort of.  Remember my weight issue?  Yea, this wasn’t helping.  So, I walked.  I made the point to get up every day and walk the dog, a little jog sprinkled in there, and shoot, I was exercising (with TV still in the afternoons)!  Hmmm, winter came and that ended that (I live in Colorado – ‘nuf said).  I did still continue to throw out a resume or two weekly and network…just in case I was misunderstanding God.

My mom had given me a silly devotional journal for Christmas that I decided to start write down “stuff” or else I would throw it away, but I knew she wouldn’t appreciate that – so I used it.  I’ve started I can’t tell you how many journals in my life!  They all ended within a week or two.  Okay, but I’ll start another one.

In addition to hearing God tell me to rest, I also felt Him say the next career / adventure / whatever to call it, would be different.

At church on 12/28/2014, the sermon was on Simple Celebration and the main passage was Joshua 4:1-9 and celebrating what God has done and what he is going to do in your life.  The beginning of the book of Joshua was when Joshua was about to take God’s people into the promise land – a HUGE pivotal point in all the Old Testament!  Now, I don’t remember every exact word my pastor said, but I did write down some of my own notes – so I’m not sure if he said these things, or if these were just God directed thoughts I was thinking.  Do you believe that you can hear from God in church even if it was directly spoken through a person?  I do.

This is one of the scriptures from that message:  Joshua 3:2-5, “After three days the officers went throughout the camp, giving orders to the people: ‘When you see the ark of the covenant of the Lord your God, and the Levitical priests carrying it, you are to move out from your positions and follow it. Then you will know which way to go, since you have never been this way before. But keep a distance of about two thousand cubits between you and the ark; do not go near it.’ Joshua told the people, ‘Consecrate yourselves, for tomorrow the Lord will do amazing things among you.’” (emphasis mine).  Sweet!  I love seeing amazing things the Lord will do!  Don’t you?

My scratched notes on what I was hearing from God during service (and into my lovely journal from mom):

  • You’ve never been this way before.
  • It may be scary to cross the river – not sure the water will come back to sweep me away, but His timing is perfect.
  • Priests had to step first (before the water parted) – when you sense the presence of God – follow it! Don’t hurry it or explain it away. I Peter 2:9 “But you are a chosen generation, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, His own special people, that you may proclaim the praises of Him who called you out of darkness into His marvelous light” NKJV
  • I am that priest carrying the ark to get everyone across. I am to go first and show others the way.
  • When God asks me to do something “simple” – do it! Remembering the story of Elisha telling Naaman the commander of the army to go wash 7 times in the Jordan and being healed – after he was furious it wasn’t something more grandiose than taking a bath (2 Kings 5).
  • Cast net to the other side of the boat for fish/job with Jesus is in my boat! Referencing Luke 5:1-11 (more about this one later)
  • Jeremiah 29:11 NIV “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” Plans for me!  This was also the scripture of the day (Bible app) the next day, 12/29/2014!

So I was getting “something” from the Lord.  What is it?  I don’t know.  Just that it will be different, I am to lead? (what?), do what He tells me even if its simple/silly, God has not forgotten me and has plans for me!  Not sure what they are tho’.  Then the boat story?  Oh!  Well, I need a job.  I figure casting the net to the other side must mean that I need to get Jesus in my boat and then I will get a job if I will keep sending out resumes!  And a great one to boot!  (These are my ramblings / thoughts at the time.)

January 2nd I wrote in my journal:

  • Yesterday’s scripture (referencing Bible app), “Behold, I will do a new thing, now it shall spring forth; shall you not know it? I will even make a road in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.” (Isaiah 43:19 – emphasis mine)
  • Plenty of fish
  • Rivers in desert (water reference)
  • God’s abundant provision is on me – even tho’ I don’t see it.

A side note about my frame of mind:  As I have been on this journey, I can’t emphasize enough that my main goal was to get a job!  I needed a job!  I needed to get out of the house!  I needed to make money!  I needed to do something that was valuable and important!  A job would help with my self-esteem as I would accomplish something!  I’m a go getter, ambitious, and capable of tackling the corporate world!  So when I read the scriptures and was seeking God, it was all with the intent and through the filtered glasses or paradigm of getting a job.  I figured God was going to give me a different type of job – like instead of marketing, maybe something in finance, or HR, or I was even open to a small business of some sort.  Hmmmm.

January 4th comes around and in the next church service, my pastor announces 2015 is the year of Rest!  Okie dokie heavenly Father, I think I’m getting that one!  And one of the scriptures for that sermon just happened to be Jeremiah 29:11 (again, that scripture!)

Back to my Bible Studies (started January 5th)

January 5th – Day 1

Since the challenge was to “study” God’s word, I figured I’d start with the first word I’d heard from God since being laid off.  Rest.  I read the little paragraphs in the Plan on the Bible app in which Joyce (yea, we’re buds now so I call her by her first name) referred to Hebrews 4.  It’s a chapter on Rest!

“Therefore, since the promise of entering his rest still stands, let us be careful that none of you be found to have fallen short of it. For we also have had the good news proclaimed to us, just as they did; but the message they heard was of no value to them, because they did not share the faith of those who obeyed. Now we who have believed enter that rest…” Hebrews 4:1-3 (emphasis mine)

We have a promise of entering into His rest – when we believe.  Believe what?  Believe in the gospel / good news of Jesus.  Then Hebrews goes on to say the Israelites did not enter God’s rest because of their disobedience.  Disobedience?  I had to read Hebrews 3 to understand the context.  Hebrews 3 is on the disobedience of the Israelites in the desert – not believing in God and His promises. I actually felt a mourning when I read this.  I felt what I think God felt in that he so wanted His people to believe in Him and what he was doing, but they would not so they would not be able to enter into His rest.  Incredibly sad.  When you stray in your heart – no rest.  Be faithful.  Unbelief = disobedience? Oh God, that I not hearden my heart!  “Today, if you hear his voice, do not harden your hearts…” Hebrews 3:7/8, and 3:15 NIV.  And “Let us, therefore, make every effort to enter that rest, so that no one will perish by following their example of disobedience.” “For the word of God is alive and active.” Hebrews 4:11-12 NIV or another version “For the word of God is living and powerful” NKJV.

I couldn’t believe it – I had just spent 2 hours actually studying the Bible!  I studied two chapters of Hebrews, used 5 different versions (another plug for Bible app because it’s all right there), and was enthralled with actually studying God’s word.  Not just a word for me right now, but studying the Bible like a school book and at the same time hearing His voice!  I was pumped and looked forward to the next day’s study!  (Which apparently didn’t happen until 2 days later…)

January 8th, I woke up at 4:00am from a dream that I didn’t get the job I had interviewed for the prior week.  I knew now I needed to give up hope for that one.  Very disappointed and crying, I couldn’t get back to sleep, so I read my daily Joel Osteen email which had the title of “Recovering What Has Been Lost.”  Then the scripture, “I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten…” Joel 2:25 NIV.  I then wrote down in my journal:  Break free from the past.  God will restore twice as much.  Then the prayer at the end of Joel Osteen’s email, “Thank you for being the God of new beginnings!” (emphasis mine).

How cool is God!  Even in my depressed moment, He was meeting me there and giving me hope and a promise.  At the same time, God was weaving the same themes throughout my time with Him and listening to Him.  So far I had:

  • Rest
  • New thing/new beginning (lead?)
  • Jesus in boat
  • Restoration

Now to my morning study.  I had determined at this point that I needed to actually make this time to do my Bible study, needed to carve out some time – but how?  (I am unemployed right?  But still I found it hard.  Isn’t that just funny how something so simple can fall by the way side.)  I’m naturally a morning person but being unemployed and married to a man that is not, I had been sleeping in.  Even tho’ the alarm goes off at 6:30am, I wasn’t getting up until 7:30 or 8:00.  I decided I would make use of this time and get my buttocks out of bed and make God first!  Every morning now, I crawl out of bed, put on sweats, make coffee, put the dog outside, then pray to start my study.  My prayer this first morning was:  “Holy Spirit help me and show me how to put the Truth (God’s word) into action today.”  I’m still all about the “action” and “doing” at this point!

However, my study led me to Exodus 33:12-14 NIV “Moses said to the Lord, ‘You have been telling me, ‘Lead these people,’ but you have not let me know whom you will send with me. You have said, ‘I know you by name and you have found favor with me.’ If you are pleased with me, teach me your ways so I may know you and continue to find favor with you. Remember that this nation is your people.’ The Lord replied, ‘My Presence will go with you, and I will give you rest.’” (emphasis mine)

Ah ha!  This has now become my prayer before every Bible study I do – God, if you are pleased with me, teach me your ways so I may know you and continue to find favor with you!  What an awesome piece of scripture revealing Abram’s heart, and God’s in His response.  Yes, I will go with you AND I will give you rest – rest from striving, rest from guessing, rest from analyzing, rest from being apart from Him.  In Him is rest!  In His presence is rest.  Not my couch and TV series (although I still like them) – but God is my rest.  God is what I’m supposed to be doing right now!  I’m to be learning His ways, as Moses knew God’s ways.

Strangely enough, it feels so right, but logically so wrong.  Shouldn’t I be focused on getting a job?

Then the next day’s study:  “For they did not gain possession of the land by their own sword, nor did their own arm save them; but it was Your right hand, Your arm, and the light of Your countenance, because You favored them.”  (Psalms 44:3 NKJV) and “‘Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit,’ says the Lord of hosts.” (Zechariah 4:6)

How many times do I need to hear from God that right now I am to be studying Him through His word?  I won’t take possession of the land (job or income) by my own sword or own arm or own efforts, but it’s by God’s right hand, His arm and the light of His countenance because He favors me!  I think I finally get it now.  Praise God, He is patient with me!  I began to ask God to change my heart to want to be more like Jesus, more than I wanted him to change my circumstances (unemployed/no income/no significant responsibility/you get the point).

(By the way, this was my journey, and may not be what God is telling you right now.  Please don’t interpret my journey with what you should or shouldn’t be doing yourself.)

Anyway, so I decided to put the job hunt on hold.  Surprisingly, that was easy!  It was such a struggle before!

The days progressed and so did my studies – I felt I was having a coffee date with God each morning and it was just so cool!  Every morning, I felt His presence and Him showing me – “see how this relates to this part, and how this part is also weaved in.”  I also started the Beth Moore study on 1st and 2nd Thessalonians and added it to the end of my personal studies on January 28th.

And then I read “Reflect on what I am saying, for the Lord will give you insight into all this.” (2 Timothy 2:7 NIV)  Okay, I will!

As I read the first 4th verse in 1 Thessalonians NIV “For we know, brothers and sisters loved by God, that He has chosen you,” the words “he has chosen you” jumped off the page!  What?  He’s chosen me?  To do what?

Then I went to the church Bible Study on February 3rd, and in Beth’s (yes, we are also on first name basis) second video, she mentioned this same verse but focused on “loved by God” which is also so cool!  But her study was on influencing those who do not know God, for it is they who are affected for God’s kingdom.  And those of us who already know God, are not only to be affecting those who don’t, but also growing into the effectual – those experiencing the fulfilled promises of God and have thriving fruit in their lives.  And then those of us that are thriving, are to be defending our position continually to stay thriving.  Very timely word for me as I had be wondering what God was doing in and planning for me.

The next morning’s personal study brought me to Isaiah 43 (NKJV) and I’ll paraphrase here:  But now, thus says the Lord, he who created me, he who formed me – Fear not!  Then verse 10: “’You are My witnesses,’” says the Lord, ‘And My servant whom I have chosen, that you may know and believe Me, and understand that I am He.’”  In my notes I jotted, “1 Thessalonians 1:4 NIV “For we know, brothers and sisters loved by God, that he has chosen you,” for the message to ring out beyond my borders and those around me.  Wow, “chosen” keeps reoccurring.

I’m chosen.  Okay, I got it.  But for what?  Then I was reminded of the boat – remember the boat reference earlier?  The time when Jesus climbed into the disciples’ boat and told them to cast their nets out again, and when they did, they got so much fish they almost sank?  After that, Jesus said to Simon, “Do not be afraid. From now on you will catch men.” Luke 5:10.  After that, they left everything and followed Jesus.

A few weeks prior, I felt that God told me to “proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.”  Since that was my “word for the day” I felt I should act on, I told everyone that day.  They may have thought it funny, but their reactions were very cordial.  But now something was seriously stirring in me.  I’m chosen!  I’m to proclaim!  I’m to prophesy (“eagerly desire this gift” I Corinthians 14:1 paraphrased)! I’m to share what God is doing in me! I’m to catch men!  Wait, wait, hold on a minute there!  My husband might not appreciate the way I worded that last one there…let me rephrase it…I’m to be a disciple – walking and talking and sharing the gospel of Jesus Christ!

Oh, (deep breath) that feels so good to say (write).  Phew.

I mentioned earlier that I married late in life.  Actually I had never been married until I was 44.  Yes, 44.  Quite the stigma not being married all that time.  Folks figured either I had serious issues (mentally or emotionally) and/or I wasn’t heterosexual!  Goodness, there were some trying times for many years just because I wasn’t married.  I also never had any children.  But I often found comfort in Isaiah 54, yet didn’t fully understand what all it meant…until February 9th in my personal Bible study.

I started this day with asking God to expand my realm of influence, folks to share Jesus and what He’s doing and can do in our lives, children in the faith per se.  I was led to Isaiah 54:1-3 NIV once again:  “’Sing, barren woman, you who never bore a child; burst into song, shout for joy, you who were never in labor; because more are the children of the desolate woman than of her who has a husband,’ says the Lord. ‘Enlarge the place of your tent, stretch your tent curtains wide, do not hold back; lengthen your cords, strengthen your stakes. For you will spread out to the right and to the left; your descendants will dispossess nations and settle in their desolate cities.’”  In the AMP version, this first verse “For the [spiritual] children of the desolate one will be more than the children of the married wife…”

I read this after praying for more “children” and felt God said – YES!  You will have many spiritual children so enlarge your territory, don’t hold back, go for it, proclaim, proclaim, proclaim!

I was in tears.  I was excited about how God would use me.  I just felt the presence of God and I was thanking Him for being willing to use me.  However, still practical that I am, I prayed that I would get confirmation from 2-3 witnesses that I was sane and hearing from God – and that I would get those confirmations quickly.

I wrote in my journal, “My desire is to have my “children” to be taught by the Lord!  Not me. To grow on their own efforts through studying His word themselves.”  Somehow, I’d like to be a catalyst for that.  Just then my husband called from work.

He actually called to just say ,”Hi”, which is awesome that he does that!  Then he said, he forgot to tell me that his youngest son, 11 yrs old (his name means “he who hears from God”) shared a dream he had about me 2 nights ago.  His son said it was really a strange dream.  He dreamt I was pregnant!”

Again, I started crying.  I tend to do that when I feel God’s presence – can be very embarrassing at times.  But I digress.  I explained to my husband how I had just written in my journal about how I felt God was giving me spiritual children, but I didn’t quite know all that meant yet.  It feels like I’m pregnant!  I want to burst forth!  That was confirmation #1.

I called my mom, shared with her briefly about some of this, and she started crying (apparently it’s genetic) and said she had just been praying about me and asking the Lord to bring me a job.  She felt God was saying the “job” would be working for Him.  That was confirmation #2.  But did I “lead” that conversation by sharing my story with her?  So I prayed that the next confirmation would be from someone who had no idea what was going on.

That same evening, my husband and I went to our counselor (always a good idea when you get married late in life and I highly recommend a Christian counselor!) and as always, she asked how my job hunt was going.  I shared that I had abandoned looking for now, because we had other stuff going on in our lives.  Then she asked, “are you pregnant?” with a smile/smirk on her face since she knows we physically can’t have any children.  Lordie Loo!  We had to say “yes! well, no, but well yes!”  This was confirmation #3.  All within the same day!

God is doing a quick work and I better get the nursery fixed up!

Now, I understand that we are ALL chosen, we are ALL called to be disciples, and we are ALL told to eagerly desire to prophesy.  Am I any different from anyone else?  Does this mean He’s calling me into full-time ministry?  To answer that, I respond, “I’m pregnant.”  I don’t know if it’s going to be a girl or a boy or twins? I don’t even know the due date!  But I do know that something is growing inside of me and I’ve got to get it out!  I believe it is God’s word that wants to be proclaimed forth!  And I believe we are ALL called to do just that.  But I’m going to do it!

Stay tuned for the announcement of the birth!

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